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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Change

I have been thinking a lot about change lately, trying to figure out just what it is about it that scares us so badly. Okay, I won't speak for EVERYBODY here, I guess I should say, why it scares ME so badly! Is it the--I-just-woke-up-out-of-a-dead-sleep-body-hurtling-50-mph-through-space-fingers-just-barely-gripping-the-end-of-this-slippery-pole-vault-feeling that a lot of time accompanies change?? It can't be because it is unexpected. Because this is the one thing that I have probably been schooled in the most throughout my life--the fact that things change. Everything changes: friends, loves, relationships, hobbies,bodies,homes,cars,lunch menus...for heaven's sake Pluto is not even a PLANET anymore!! So we really should be planning on change. But do I? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. But I don't think that this is why change is so scary. I think it might be because change is Heavenly Father's way of moving us forward. Well, it should be moving us forward. We have to choose that part. And that shouldn't be scary, but sometimes, because we are human, it is. And most of the time I choose to let it move me backward, and then I waste a lot of time running in very small, very panicky circles. Because I haven't yet learned how to gracefully turn it all over to Him. But I will. Someday, when I feel like I am once again being pole-vaulted through space, I will be able to close my eyes, relax, and enjoy the ride. I hope.

10 comments:

LivingstonClan said...

Thanx for that Audrey. Awesome thoughts. Let's get on that--change video's!!!

Schroeders in a nut shell said...

good thoughts....it's interesting, I've been thinking a lot on this same topic, and actually blogged about it on Sunday...you'll have to check my site out for my feelings on this same subject.....I am with you 100% though...I'm just not so good with change...but it's everywhere!!

Cody said...

Change is hard. I distinctly remember a time when I was so blissfully happy with the way things were and I knew change was coming and I had a really hard time accepting that. Once I got through the change, I realized it is okay and things can still be good, even if they are different. Do you have a big change ahead???

Cody said...

Sorry that was me... Nicole.

The Reimers Family said...

It's always the unknown that is the scariest. Sometimes I think that we don't think that we can handle the change, but Heavenly Father knows we can, we just have to keep faith.

suzanne said...

My favorite so far!! Well said, funny, and poignant. (did i spell that right?!) You are amazing.

Ang said...

I AM READING YOUR BLOG, SO LAY OFF!!! ha ha! just kidding! that was beautiful and very timely for me. thank you! i love you!

leesh said...

the thing about change, is (can you see me holding my finger out towards you and pointing?)- feeling exposed, vulnerable, and insecure. it pushes us to knock down some of that wall, that has protected and shields. it requires us to search within, places that are just fine in the corner, in the dark, out of site; and then to have to "bring them out from hiding", when we finally thought they (feelings, abilities, memories, etc.) were buried, never to be found again.
change requires faith, hope, energy, patience, trust, and willingness.
thanks, audge. i loved this piece!

Karen and Matt said...

Thank you for posting about this! great thoughts. change is hard. Heaven knows I have had a lot of it in the past few years. Things will be ok if you just accept the change, and quit fighting it. Like Alysha said have faith, hope, patience etc. etc. etc. The Lord knows what you need, and what you can handle. I love you Audge! =)

leesh said...

audrey- hey, when are we going to start your writing group? you haven't written any more... i was looking forward to reading more of your wisdom! love you!